Ultimate Rhoads

Hi guys!

I'm back, the funeral was a good service and a great send off, tears were shed, but it wasn't over the top, mainly focused on the good and funny things that my grandfather had done, fighting for what he believed in, helping the helpless, my grandfather really left a legacy, and thats just his good side, his business side, he was at the top of the mitchelin company for many years before retirement, he really served his life, I didn't realise how popular my grandfather was, because there wasnt just family there but friends and old work mates.

I got to meet my grandfather's brother (the father of the relative who works at pinewood) and since talking to him about my grandfather, getting to know what granddad was like when he was young etc, I just now feel I know my identity, I know how both grandfathers's live on in the blood in my veins and I know that it was worth going, just to know more about my granddad.

Although, I did feel the tears coming, I didn't shed them, I once felt guilty, but I don't, I'm sure my grief will come soon.

I must say I had a bit of a smile when my grandfather's brother patted me in the back and said "Us Fielders have to stick together we are a dying breed" As most of the family are women, but to be honest, we aren't dying out, the name may change but everyone in the family is a fielder by soul.

I look forward to the future, a lot more than originally did so, and whats more the new self sense of knowing who i am, i got to learn that some of things I do in my nature, stem from my grandfather too.

To close this message, I would like to thank everyone who helped and I hope everyone is indeed well.

Simon

One of the hardest steps to take up the stairway of your life is the one that says "life goes on". I felt as you did when my grandmother died but I also grew up quite a bit from that experience and it opened my eyes to the fact that we're all going on the same journey some day and life gained a little more meaning for me. Glad to see you are allowing the passing of your grandfather to be one of lifes biggest lessons taught to you.

Cheers to you Simon (with mafia mama and Suzie drinking also wishing the same)

You got through it. Thanks for being so open to your friends at UR and get some rest

Matt

Im glad you are OK and just remember that you are amongst real friends here, I know all who posted here with you through this truely care about you.

Well said Ian.

Good to have you back, Si!